You still 'feel sick' and you still have too much dependence on her actions determining your feelings.
Let her go. Meet for counseling while also just no longer playing this emotional game. You're just as much an enabler of her crap as she is.
You KEEP playing this game. Man up and start doing things differently. And no, don't say 'I don't know what you mean'. You know exactly what I mean.
Start being a man. The more she sees this pussy behavior, the more she stay ambivalent. WOMEN are attracted to strong men who don't play into THEIR emotional crap. If not her, then someone else who doesn't have these f'ing problems.
