Your diagnosis seems to be agreeing with my gut instinct. I'll have to think about it and do some soul searching. I think you are right, GF is taking care of the R for us. Not good.

I have only myself to blame, I told GF that I wanted to keep our R on a certain level, not too deep so fast. She said yes but she plunged deeper into the R. She asked me why I haven't told her that I love her the other day, seems she is at that stage of [censored] or get off the pot.

I'm just not ready to go down that road just yet, at least with GF. I will someday but not right now, I'm focused on too many other things that need priority. I do care about her, but telling her I love her will open a new world and I am not ready for that commitment just yet.

We did talk last night and put everything on the table, it did clear the air. I told her that since the begining I wanted to proceed slowyly, take our time, etc. She understood and told me to take my time, that she didn't want me to tell her I loved her because she pushed in that direction.

Today, I've recieved emails and phone calls from X. She's trying to bait me into conversation/arguement. I'm not taking it. I haven't checked to see what she wanted because the last email was pure BAIT and I don't want to give X the satisfaction.

I'll keep posting to vent my thoughts and ask for advice, this works alot for me. Thank you OT for the words of wisdom, you keep sniffing and seeing right through all this, keeps me honest with myself.

Thanks

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