I understand what you are saying, I have always had a low self esteem, this is more to do with my parents, however since H A i have really struggled, felt that I wasn't pretty enough,slim enough, you know all the good things! But slowly I am realizing that it has nothing to do with that, and yes we had a bad marriage, but it ulitmately had nothing to do with me why he went with ow. His choice... These are very slow gains for me, but still gains, and you have to see all the positive strong points that you have! You have fought hard for your marriage, and seem to be winning, which makes you stronger and better then alot of people out there who would have just thrown it away without a second thought! Why not try doing a dialouge on this issue with your husband so that it will help him really get an idea as to how you feel about it?!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!