Thank you all SO much for replying. I am really sad right now, but this is all helping. I was actually looking forward to being around my H tonight just so I could implement some of this stuff. Acting as if is starting to get just a tiny bit easier, but is quite challenging for me. Patience is not a virtue I have a lot of... And I am still so sad when he walks out the door, and has barely even said good night! He came to spend some time with our little girl. I was making some dinner which he shared with me- that made me feel good, though sometimes it doesn't, when I know I just give and give and it feels like I'm giving to a bottomless, thankless pit... It felt all right just to offer since I was getting ready to eat- not begging for an opportunity to spend time together.
We have our second counseling session with Michele tomorrow. I hope it is a good one, and that he'll keep going with me!
He won't even really look at me which is jarring in and of itself!
