new here and really worried

[littlebitlost]

See he was you. But now he isnt. I dont know where it was he started to give up. Where it was that he decided it wasnt worth the fight anymore. I have been out almost 6 months and slept on the couch for 5 or 6 before that. You haven't given up but he has. He says he has trust issues now and is working with a life coach. I wish I could make it all up to him...take away the pain i caused.

We had a great talk tonite before I went to french class and we REALLY talked and we REALLY listened. I told him how I was feeling about facing fears instead of running from them as he did ask me today what I would do the next time i was afraid or confused. We talked about all the things I said before I left taht were really hurtful. I explained taht they were wrong but at that point I was pulling 'away' and he was ;ushing so hard that I was saying things to get him to back off. I think he believes me but that does not take away from the pain that it caused him and I apologized for that.

I dont ever want to hurt anyone the way I hurt him again. At the same time I dont ever want to hurt like this again myself.

Thanks for responding to me goodguy. Either this is quieter board than I am used to, my story is boring or people hate me cause I am a walk away. LOL!!