its funny, S5 just got up to go potty real quick and said, mommy, I want to show you something. he pointed out the moon to me from our center upstairs window. its big and beautiful and full right now. he was in awe. said he wished we could go outside for a minute to see it, never guessing that I would say, okay, buddy, lets go.
I took him outside and we sat on our porch steps just looking up at the moon. off to the left I pointed out the first star to him and he gasped. I asked him if he knew how to wish on a star, and he didn't (we used to but its been a long time). together we said, "starlight, star bright, first star I see tonight..." and i told him to make a wish, but keep it secret or it wouldn't come true. I wished, too. and for the first time, i didnt' wish for H to come back. I won't tell you what i wished for (I want it to come true, after all!), but the fact that H wasn't my wish is pretty big for me.
it was a really special moment with my son. I'm glad he woke up...we sat for a few more minutes and talked and snuggled. now he's off to bed and I'm just kind of sitting here....sitting here with lots on my mind. but at least I'm not crying anymore.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
