The fight of my life

[COG]

AmyC,

I just don't know that I can keep this up endlessly.

You definately don't have to keep this up without end, there'll be an end alright and in God's time. Our job is to keep moving forward, one step, one moment, one day at a time. Let yesterday stay yesterday, tomorrow be unknown, and the precious moment is NOW.

After all, look how long it took to get here..

As my W keeps telling me, "it took us a long time to get there, and it'll take us a long time to get back". One baby step at a time. Move forward with YOUR life. Let go your neediness, selfishness, and fear and move on. Forgive your H, let him go, and live out your reality with joy and humility. It can always be worse.

I just don't have the strength I had in the beginning of my stand.

You may be loosing strength, but you still have courage and faith. Reach out to the Lord, and ask Him to be your crutch.

This is not all about YOU AmyC. The hardest times are those when you count the days, how long you have struggled, and you realize how far you've yet to go. Worse, there's little promise that your H will ever change. Been there and done that. I'm glad I stuck it out. It's still not perfect, probably never will be, but I was very surprised when my sitch changed. I did'nt expect it, I was hopeful, but I just did'nt expect her to ever change. But she did, and it took a few YEARS longer than I wanted.

Miracles do happen. Maybe not on our timeframe, maybe not in the specific ways that we demand, but faith is the key in seeing and believing that they are always done perfectly.

My prayers are with you. It's tough, it's hard, it seems fruitless, and impossible. Well, I wonder............

Love,

COG