He definitely knows I want the marriage, no question. He knows that I forgive him for the things he has done, he knows that I love him unconditionally. 3weeks before he left, he was so excited planing for a baby with me, so that he would be a dad by father's day! then, he wants to be liberated.... I will wait forever for him, but I will still live my own life. I jsut want him to come back. He may have to do this by himself, but he doesn;t have to be alone....