Well, MC seems to be a moot point, since there's no official relationship. ;\) Yes, I have considered seeing someone myself. I tried counseling off and on a few years back...didn't have much luck with. I suppose part of my hesitance is that I honestly don't know what I want. MC would suggest picking a direction--something I am reticent to do.

Writing has been the most helpful, most especially these boards, so I just went back to what worked before. If nothing else, it helps to clear my head.

I guess part of it is I know exactly what causes the problems on his side. It's a frequent topic of conversation. Which brings me back to my basic problem: What in the world do I want?

I've been doing all the focusing-on-me things...rediscovering my own interests, meeting new people, working on my own insecurities. I've kind of assumed the solution would present itself when the timing is right.

I guess...I'm really looking for other DB-minded people to poke around, point out my mistaken assumption, and ask thought-provoking questions that haven't occurred to me already.

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Azhira

my confusion