So there is nothing I can do unless (God forbid) something happens to the girls?

I'm just a little worried, that would be the third time something happened to my little one. Remember, X and MIL both had probation for 9 months for Child Abandonnment and Child Neglect from before with little one.

I really don't care who she dates, I would just rather people spend the night. I can only ask and I can only live MY life the best I can to raise my girls in the best possible way.

Don't get me wrong (OT) I am not pursuing and have not expressed my concern over this, that is why I come here. It seems the more I vent what is bothering me from my head to my fingers, the better I feel and that keeps me from wanting to speak to X about things that I don't want to talk about.

IF (and that is a big IF) something happens (which I pray doesn't) to my girls while this guy is around, that is strike three and I am going to Child Protective Services. My girls need to be safe and my X in the past has shown a pattern of not thinking in the best interest of the girls.

I'm not back peddling or taking steps back because there is nothing to move forward to. What I am saying is that I've always held out some hope that we'd work things out but I have been moving forward and with my posting here working as therapy, I'm on my way.

BTW OT, how the hell are ya? Did you get my response to you email?

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