Originally Posted By: BryanS
yet another question: what are your thoughts on pictures?
Still debating this question from above if anyone has any thoughts on it.

Talked to W again two nights ago and it was very positive. Got a maybe for my brothers wedding in two weeks (I'm the best man ) and an interestd maybe in retrouvaille at the end of October. I think one of the things that's really helped me recently has been all the problems W has had with work. She's been calling me almost every night and venting about it and it's been a good oppurtunity for me to showcase some increased compassion and faith in her abilities. The best thing is, I really enjoy being there for her, something that used to get old for me very quickly. Sucks that she has to go through this but I am a pretty spiritual person and I can defintely see a Larger Hand in this, providing oppurtunities for us to re-connect.

The best thing right now is that I feel pretty positive but also pretty detached. I hope she wants to work this out but I can also see that my life will be pretty good either way. I'm still lonely from time to time, that's probably the biggest problem I'm dealing with right now, the hours of silence around the house. Going out almost makes it worse because it seems like all I see are happy couples walking around holding hands. But, I know that someday I will have that again so I feel like I can wait. Hopefully with W but if not, something else will fall into place.

I told W last night that this sep has been a good thing and I really believe that. I've had these things inside of me for years that have needed attention but I never did anything about them. With the M in the crapper and nothing left to lose I thought what the heck and tried to grow beyond my self imposed limitations and the feeling of personal empowerment, of feeling like my happiness is not tied to fate, is unreal.