I've been here before, originally in 2003 or 2004, I believe. Amazingly, my memory of it is fuzzy. I suppose that's a good thing. ;\) I even successfully busted that divorce...

Realizing I wasn't totally pulling out of the funk this time, I started blogging. I kept kicking around the idea of returning here, but I was hesitant to feel like I was 'going backward'.

After some lurking, I decided the best approach might be to start with a clean slate...so I wouldn't psychologically be carrying around all that baggage from before.

Of course, having been on this ride before, I'm entirely uncertain whether or not I actually want to salvage my relationship with him. (Assuming, of course, he would give it another shot. I know enough, however, to see it's certainly a possibility.) While I could list the pros and cons and be very clerical about it...it really comes down to one question for me: Is this separation/reconciliation cycle a pattern with him now? Or is it because we still haven't gotten our relationship figured out?

Azhira

my confusion