Nomopo's Funk? Is that what this is?

[Nomopo]

Hello all my friends!!! Thanks for checking in on me. Things are going well for mer personally. Very well.

No developments in my M sitch that I know of. W is not much of a talker anyway, and we are having very little contact, so I am clueless about what is going on in her mind. We had an intense JC session last week. The C suggested she meet with each of us alone this week. W went this morning, and I go tomorrow. Maybe I will know mnore after that. Maybe not. Anyway, our interactions have been friendly, but I have detached to a large, large, large degree.

I have been dating. It has been very healthy for me personally. I have been deprived of much for too long. WE ALL DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!

Not sure what effect this dating will have on my M. There is a big part of me that wants to move on with my life, and leave W behind. There are small parts of me that (1) feel sorry for W (she is so lost in my mind it is sad) and (2) wonder if W will come around. I have to be honest - I am actually afraid she might. If that happened, it would be so hard. I am so much more detached, and the thought of slogging through re-building a R with her is terrifying. It would be such hard work, and would take so long, and I'm not at all sure it would work or be worth it. I don't have much confidence she can be the person I thought she was or that I need her to be. Thus, my life would be easier if she never gave me that choice to make.

Enough of that. Really just wanted to bump my thread back up. I hope all of you are well. I try to keep tabs on people, but have been busy with other stuff. Guess we're all just doing the best we can.

Later,
Nomo