There and Back, #7

[SallyM]

my last thread is due to lock up, so figured I'd go ahead and start a new one.

okay, what is with the heat wave? summer's way of not letting go? hey, I'm all for it, except that my air conditioning is still busted upstairs. have a feeling the kids and I will be having a sleepover downstairs tonight. lol. or maybe I'll suck it up and call the air cond. guy...but by the time they'd get here, we'll probably be back in fall-mode. actually, the furnace guy is coming by to do the yearly check on my furnace, so maybe I can press him into a/c service, too. hmmmm.

good day planned today. all 3 kids have school this morning, and I took the week off of therapy, so (gasp) I have 2 whole hours to myself!!!! was up early and did my ab tape, but thinking I will head home and do tae bo, then finally pick up one of the many books I have sitting on my nightstand. actually, think I'll finish up the one my therapist lent me so I can finally get that back to her. I do have some housework to do, but thinking I'll hold off till the kids get home and they can "help" me. lol. they love to, and I hate to deprive them.

H called this morning and sounded tired but fine. He is coming after work today, and I think things will be okay. going to head to the gym for some cardio while he is here. I don't see him trying anything, but if he does, I know what I'll say/do. the trick is not letting him start at all...cutting him off at the pass, so to speak. again, my gut is telling me he won't even try anything, but since this is a tough week for him, I think having my own game plan is a good thing. on the other hand, if he falls apart and is sad/desolate again, I'm going to have a harder time with that. but I have my mantra...step back, let him feel things for himself, don't try to fix things...

I have to share something from the other night's ep on The War. a vet was talking about guadalcanal (I think) and he was talking about how the shelling/bombing was so intense there that at first you were sure every one had your name on it. then eventually you learned to detach...you had to to survive...and realize that you had to do your own thing, not worry about the bombs and such, because there was nothing you could do to change something that was out of control, the only thing you had control over was yourself. It really struck me, listening to him. He was dealing with a situation that was much more intense, had much higher stakes, than we all are dealing with. but wow, the language was all there, and the action/reaction was the same.