It seems to me that these ongoing meeting and dinners are accomplishing nothing genuine. Even you commented that she's putting on an act. Do you think your daughter doesn't notice? Do you think the kids don't smell the booze?
The meetings are only regarding our kids, so I do see them as productive as it provides me with ammunition for the guardian ad lidum.
The dinners show a good faith effort on my part to help my D14 and her mother work on their relationship. Is it a sacrifice by me to shelf my feelings, yes, but it is a sacrifice for my D14 that I will continue to make.
I believe that even if I am granted custody of my D14 she still must have a relationship with her mother and as her father it is my responsibility to nurture that relationship.
My W's behavior around D14 has been better. She is making efforts to be a better mom. Do I believe it is an act, yes, however how many times have we discussed the term fake it until you make it around here. If Carrie needs to fake it for now until it becomes real then so be it.
I should not have said losing situation, that was some of my own feelings of loss coming out in my post. I know I have grown, I know I am a better person today, and I know I am a better father because of all of this. I was just in one of those moods where I was only looking at the outcome of my marriage and not the growth of the individual. I apologize for that, it was a poor choice of words.
Rob, I hear you buddy, and I get what you are saying. However, I cannot live that way and even allow myself to think that there is still a chance with her. I have made a conscious choice to not allow myself to feel the pain anymore of her decisions and part of that is having to disconnect from hope.
