Forgive me for being ignorant about this (and not having the time to reread your threads to find out), but are you seeing a C about depression? You have it big time. I went through a pretty bad period myself (and still sometimes go back into the pit). The level of depression you have is not something that is easy to pull yourself out of.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
