The reason I accept blame for H's affair is because it allows me to justify wanting to hold on and fix the marriage. Why else would I accept so much abuse and still want to spend my life with this man.
Of course this is not the only reason. I also take my vows and commitment seriously. I realize that, even with D, we will still have to work out many of our issues for the sake of the children. We will always have to deal with eachother. The more people (new spouses) involved, the more complicated things get. I want my life as simple as possible. The most important-I want my kids to have the family they deserve. That's why, if he came to me tommorrow and said he wanted to come home b/c he missed the kids, I would accept it. It would be enough for me, as long as OW was out of the picture, I could work a lifetime to make myself a part of that package for my kids sake.
No contact from H today except there was a paypal withdrawal, even after I let him know the account was empty. Luckily, I had deposited a little cushion, but still. I'm irked.
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
