Hey gang, so I haven't been very good lately about posting whats been happening. To be honest, I haven't been in the mood to post a lot about my sitch as it is certainly not going great or any kind of success story.
My W and I have met twice in the last week about our kids, including tonight. She is making an effort to work with me on developing her relationship with our daughter.
My problem is that I feel she is simply being nice in order to make all of this easier for her and for no other intent besides very selfish reasons. I don't believe her motives are good and that she is thinking at all about our daughter and how she feels in all of this.
We also had dinner together with the kids on Sunday, a way for her to deal with my D14 on her turf rather than in the W's apartment where my D14 is miserable. That went well, she behaved well and was nice as could be, again, my doubts on her sincerity where there.
I told her tonight that I get where we are at, but I cannot stand the damage that it is doing to our children.
On Sunday at my S10's soccer game she left in the middle and ran to the store. She got me a water bottle, it's the first time she's been considerate of me in quite some time. Tonight I thanked her for that and she gave me some bullshit line about how we can be cordial and considerate of each other. When she said this apparantley my face went sour, she said "nice look", my only response was "sorry". Her problem, not mine.
Anyway, life is what it is and I continue down this road I am on. Her breath smelled of banana rum, I said have you been drinking rum and she said yes.....nice..... alone in her apartment drinking...blech.........
Actually, odd sidenote, when I got to her apartment to pick her up she asked me if I just wanted to talk there. I immediately said no. I look at her place as a horrible reminder to me of some tings that she has done. Her affairs, and a sign of her leaving our home. I am not comfortable there at all.
Overall, my life is going well. My job is good, my kids are doing well for the most part, and I am happy most of the time. I feel like I am in a good place and that all of this is simply part of my journey that will be over soon enough.
Again, sorry for not posting much on my own thread, just sometimes hate talking about a losing situation.....
