I was not around for previous discussions. I did not mean to insinuate you had a choice to do what you had intended to with your life. I just meant that you had a choice of what to do after your dream was ended. I do not get the feeling that you regret any of those choices after. I just believe that you regret being robbed of the opportunity to do what you had planned to do. I also assume that with the issues I've heard with your parents you were not equipped to deal with the idea of mourning that loss appropriately. It's just a guess...
I do not blame you for not wanting to discuss it further here but I do hope you will continue to talk with your wife.
You are a good man, a good husband and a good father. Those are incredibly important things.
But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? ~Albert Camus
