new here and really worried

[littlebitlost]

ah markyb I know now how he felt. All I can say is that i was honestly very confused and now believe that there may have been some post partum depression as well as a very good friend of ours who kept pointing out to me how unhappy I was. He was my best friend of 10 years...before I even dated my H. They became very close and H and I have talked about the fact that that was a keep your enemies closer scenario as apparently he figured that H and I woudl break up and he could slide in there. How wrong he was. I have nto spoken to him in about 9 months.

I am referred to on the board we share as the WAS turned LBS. My H finds that very amusing and thinks its bunk. Says he is still the LBS.

I know that it will take alot of time to get his trust back and I am willing to do what ever it takes. He is just so cold to me now that seeing any future with him in terms of M seems unrealistic. He cant even hug me without being stiff.

I love him so much. i want to work towards us being 'in love' again. We have to do it together. I know I cant make him 'see' by telling him and showing is sooooo slow. Things take time...this I know.