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H is not the type that would approach me with R talk. The marriage would just start getting better. He would start doing things or saying things that would bring us closer together.

One thing I noticed about H this time is that he has not done the things I would expect from him, which tells me that he's not necessarily unhappy with me or being with me. My H can be/has been a big drinker. At times when he's been angry before, he would have the tendancy to either drink here at home or when he went out and then start in with the negative R talk. Not that this happened a lot or that it was horrible...I want to leave...type of talk, but that's when & how he let out his thoughts. He hasn't done that. Don't get me wrong, that's good for me, but the way he is this time is different.

I'm expecting that he's thinking I'll call him tonight while he's out. He just got off work about 10 minutes ago. Not going to call. We had a good convo. this afternoon when he called and I want to leave it there for now. No pursuing or checking up on him, right?

I'm really looking forward to going to my parent's house this weekend. I grew up in a VERY small rural town. The most kids in a class in my high school was about 30. I had 17 in my graduating class. I usually go home when there is some event happening. My nieces go to the school that I went to growing up, so I know a lot of the parents & I still have friends there. However, there is NOTHING happening this weekend. I get to spend it with family and just hang out. I promised my mom I would help her around her house & yard. I did that last year just before Christmas and helped them put up their decorations. My sister & her H live down the street, so I'll spend time with them too. My sister knows a little about what's going on, but no one else. Oh, and my last living grandparent (g'mother) lives there too. I told H that I was going to help my folks, but I also told H that I'd be checking out the new bar in town!

Well, I better get busy. D3 wants to play on the computer & I want to get her to bed early. One good thing about H being out is that if I get her to sleep, I can relax for a while too!

Have a good evening.

SueS


ME: 42, H: 42, D6
Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs.
Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009
Status: Working on it day by day