Oh Faith, this is wonderful. Minus the idiot comments about OW and her birthday. Poop on her birthday.
Take a peek in piecing, I bet it will really help you out. Keep up GAL, (ok, eventually you'll have to break it off with your 'bf' lol), keep up being mysterious and not all the way available. I have read that even though this is exactly what you want (what we all want), that it takes time for you to let it sink in, and to trust again.