I don't feel as though actually being D will change anything I feel, I guess I am already divorced, I just don't have the piece of paper saying so. I do fear D, I don't want to go through the experience of court, I haven't been in a court before, it frightens me.
H is free to do what he likes now, he has already been living a singles life for well over 2 years, but for some reason I feel he thinks the D will give him the freedom and peace he is looking for, I actually feel he thinks the divorce will work as his ticket back into our sons lives. I don't know why I feel this, I haven't seen him or talked with him but my instincts are often on the right track, he is in for such a disapointing time if the D doesn't bring him peace. I think the LBS copes better with the D because we don't have any expectations riding on it, we have already experienced our disapointments.
