I have only experienced the occasional episode of anger towards H, it is difficult to be angry with him. OK, he has always been a little selfish, he is materialistic but he was always a helpful and generous man. He was such a hands on dad, our boys didn't go to nursery if he was on a day off, and he would collect them at his 1st opportunity, whilst friends of ours would go off playing golf, shopping etc.
I would get home to find him ironing, he learnt to cook, he wasn't very good at cleaning and dusting (apart from the T.V screen ) but he did most other jobs, we worked well together.
Both of H's affair followed a severe let down career wise, non of this excuses his behaviour but it does tell us how far he is from the person we knew, it does help us get through this knowing that there is a good person within him.
We have rejected the H is now, the lads have rejected his new life style, but we haven't rejected the person he trully is, I would love for my sons to have a healthy relationship with their dad, I really do hope H finds his way back to them sooner rather than later, H has missed out on so much, we have so much to tell him, hopefully one day he will want to listen to our adventures, not sure if we will want to listen to his though, ( that's very selfish of us )
