I so don't want to give up on us but I must be truthful to myself and accept that there is no hope.
How do you know? Do you want to give up? If you don't, then don't. You've not been here long. It takes time to turn things around. Don't throw in the towel because it "looks" hopeless at the moment.
Yes, you have to let her go. Yes, she's detached from you. Focus on yourself and becoming a better person and maybe she'll come back. I'm trying just the same as you. There's no guarantee of success, but I'm not giving up yet.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY