Personaly I have no expectations , am realistic in knowing things could go either way , I am happy in myself and right now i treat this as a growing and learning experience .
That is the preferred place to be, isn't it?
As usual, I'm right there with you, getting a lot out of the ride.
Yes, it is a mix of being ready to get on with life, & not quite being sure where your S is at the moment.
Because we all know that feeling change, she could be closer than you know. In fact, it does sound like you are having more connections, such as the one you had one the phone.
As the D attny said to me when I said I might be ready to file at any moment, "what's your hurry, are you planning on getting married to someone else soon?"
I think she's right, it is tempting to consider ending it & moving on to move out of limbo. The end result though, is that you would just trade it for something else that might not be pleasent either.