I know you don't want the D. But, if she is set on doing it then your hands are tied. But don't allow your strong opposition of it detear you from getting what you want of it in the end. If she is willing to accomplish it with out any atty. involved then go with the flow. If atty, get involved it will become a big mess.
A "D" is only a piece of paper. And in this piece of paper it does not say that there is no love between you. It does not say that you can not remarry. It does not say that you can't get along.
Honestly, rom what I read in your posts about your wife and her behavior, she stills loves you. She is just unsure about your love for her. Not from you lack of you telling her, but from your lack of you showing her. If she did not love you she would not be all up in your business and continually reminding you about everything you have done. She would simple just move on and not speak to you.
“Do you want to be RIGHT or want to be LOVED” “You have to have a life to share a life with someone” “When you stop resisting, you start learning”