HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND

[suzanne s]

Goal- I stumbled on your thread and agree with all who say you are doing so well and that they are inspired by it. I also have to say that when I saw the following in one of your posts it really hit home! I feel the same way, and seeing someone else say it made me cry for the loss of the wonderful person I married. He isn't here now, But I pray he will be again.

(((By going dark I have peace. There are times I really miss my H, but I remind myself that he is not the man that I married. He is the opposite in every way, shape and form. By going dark I risk that my H will forget about me - "out of sight out of mind thing". By going dark, I guess sometimes I hope that I forget about him. He is always there, in my heart though. He lives there when I see a pretty sunset, or when my daughter laughs, or when one of my patients die at work. I always hear his voice consoling me, commending me, or just talking with me. - I only hear the old H, not the new.)))

Hang in there! I hope all works well for you. I would direct you to my threads to read my sitch, but I am not sure how to do that. Take care and sorry you had a tough day the other day, I understand!