ended up running to the mall with my MIL this afternoon. she works p/t at a dept store there and they were having a huge discount for employees, so figured I'd look for some new boots, a new coat, some other stuff. big ol' nothing...couldn't find anything I loved, or else they were out of my size. hate that. really annoying, actually, in the shoe dept. they have a new system, I think designed to compete with the nordstrom that is coming soon. HA! I'm from the west coast, folks, I know nordstrom, and you, pathetic store that you are, are no nordstrom.
capped off the night with dinner at the rainforest. can someone pass me the razor? seriously, this particular rainforest cafe is second only to my local costco on a sunday for the 7th circle of hell competition.
still, overall a good weekend. did some thinking (what's new) and I think I'm really starting to see how unhappy h was for a long time. things are starting to stick out in my mind. I wish I had noticed these things then, or that he would have talked to me about them instead of just bailing, but again, cementing in my mind just how far gone he is. he's been gone for a long time now, actually.
ah, well, its good, these realizations. they help me to re-think some things, to look at them thru new eyes. getting that birds eye view my therapist is always talking about.
gonna raise my freak flag here...anyone else fired up for the new Ken Burns show on ww2 tonight? anyone? just me? yeah, figured. normally something H would watch with me, but hey, not gonna let that slow me down....going to curl up on the couch and just take it easy the rest of the night. have a feeling I'm going to be reminded again and again just how good I have it right now.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
