Hi all,

Sorry for my relative absence . Still feeling rather low. Some of it is physical (foot, kidney, ovaries, carpal-tunnel like hand pains, stress rash) but some of it is emotional too.

Had a dream yesterday morning in which I miss the bus to go for a much needed Doctor’s appointment. So I start jogging up the street and overtake a man driving a buggy with a pair of horses. I’m impressed with myself for running faster than they, but “I know I won’t be able to keep up this pace for long”. Geez, I wonder what that could mean?

I tried to get to bed early last night (midnight is early for me), but my mind wouldn’t shut off. Engaged in some anxiety-driven nail clicking (a version of biting, but far less destructive to the nice long nails I now sport).

I woke today to yet another hang up. Our caller ID shows an area code for the province where OW lives. H didn’t recognize the number. We used his old phone card to dial the #, but got a fast busy signal. H thinks she’s probably using a phone card herself which ID’s as a generic local number from where you’re calling.

It wasn’t uplifting to know that there are 275 minutes still left on this phone card (which I’ve had since she last called, H gave it to me). That means each one has at least 300 minutes, maybe more, and this was at least his third one.

I’m feeling, for my own sake (agitation is popping up more and more, dealing rather well with it, however) we need to start setting (on paper) some short term goals. Mentioned this to H the other night, and got a kind of nod/shrug in return.

So nothing drastic, just a little dip on the rollercoaster, I wish it would start to climb, starting to feel like a bit of a plateau.

Hope there’s some uplifting news out there for me to catch up on today!!

Shiny