what is the ow thinking??

[saffie]

I think in my sitch tho' I was very lucky that H obviously did feel very guilty about what he had done even before I knew. Also, the fact that he told me when he was ready meant that he was happy with the pace of things - he sort of had it under control before I knew about it. We did have a mad week when I wasn't sure what was going to happen but I am sure in hindsight (ain't hindsight wonderful?),that he knew what was going to happen, (apart from my suicide attempts), and he was just getting off on the being fought over and wanted by two women. That does actually make me really mad when I think about it!!!

Even if the A had broken up the M he would never have stayed with her - he openly acknowledges that but can't understand why that makes me even madder. Why do something that did so much damage but meant so little to him?

I really don't understand sometimes!!

Anyways, am going to see my horse for a while now.

Back later

Saffie