oh, and btw, I do need to change my hair. not sure what I'll do with it, but I need to do something. a new cut, maybe. new make-up? maybe. some new clothes...definitley. still need to do some fall shopping (I'm down a size from last year, thanks to the "my h is f'ing a whore diet"). but all those things are external, and I wonder how much they will really make me stop feeling frumpy. maybe they will...I suppose they are a start.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
I am so mad at your H for causing the kids pain, then talking about how cute they are when they tell him goodnight. Oooooh that burns me, its like he is 'showing' them off!!! Gross. Ok, happy place.
I am glad you are filling your weekend up for your kids' sake and for your own sake. Time will pass no matter what you do, so may as well try to have fun, or go through the motions so your kids make good memories.
I am so sorry that you are glue. I am not sorry you do it, because you are Mom and that's what GOOD mommies do, but I am sorry for the pain that's involved. Breaks my heart what your kids say and do.
The one Gilmore Girls that upset me was when Luke realized he wanted to see Lorelei's face all the time. He knew that meant he loved her. I miss that. I miss someone wanting to see my face. Not flinching because I am around.
Your H is still attracted to you! And you to him. I know I am beating a dead horse, so sorry, but that is a lot! I am mad at your H, too. None of your problems seem insurmountable at all.
I like your TH technique. I am one who is into growing old. I have a lot of respect for old people.
I do cry at the ending of Pride and Prejudice because it does feel like Elizabeth finds her Prince Not So Charming, and I used to secretly wish to start over and be single and have that. Maybe I knew my lost H could not be my Prince, maybe he feels that he can be with his OW. Am I having an epiphany?
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
I know, Morgan. (((HUGS))) This just isn't fair is it? They don't even see the mess they make, how their children suffer. Yet they have the nerve to complain how much they are hurting. Sorry, doll. Tomorrow will be better. When H gets back, you take some time for yourself, OK? Or don't even wait for him. Get someone to watch the kids for a few hours. At least treat yourself to a nice hot bubble bath. Hmmmm, I might just do that myself!
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
Having a babysitter has changed my life. I have been a SAHM, ony working part time so I never really had a babysitter. I use one now to take yoga classes. Wow. Why didn't I think of that sooner? Guilt or money I guess. Do you use a babysitter Morgan?
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
no, no babysitter, other than my MIL occasionally. but I do go to the gym during the week and the kids go to the playroom there, and then greg comes during the week 1x or 2x, then takes them on the weekends, don't forget. and now that the twins are in preschool 2 mornings a week, I have 2 hours 2x a week on my own as well. one I use for therapy, one I use for my own free time....usually something useful. think I need to schedule something a little decadent this week, maybe splurge for a facial. maybe that will help my out of my frumpy funk. but the point is, I get plenty of me time, without a sitter.
today my MIL and her boyfriend are coming over. we're going to a farm to pick pumpkins. will probably have them stay with the kids while I do some errands on my own...just a little space for myself. will be useful, probably the grocery store...but that's pretty decadent, going on my own, instead of with 3 kids. lol
off to make some apple bread. we picked a ton of apples yesterday, far more than we'll ever be able to eat, so think I'm going to bake up some bread, some muffins (those will be good to send in S5's snack bag for school snacks, might make a ton and freeze them so they'll keep), and the kids are voting for more apple crisp.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
it's freakishly warm out, isn't it donna? weird to apple pick in this weather, but so much fun. would love the recipe for your moms cake if you would be interested in sharing it.
hope you are doing okay, and I think your day sounds like a good one!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
lwb, is eckerts still around? we used to go there when I was a kid (was born in st louis, lived there until I was 8). I have fond memories of the place...there were hay rides, if I remember correctly.
okay, slaved over the apple bread and my kids have decided they don't like it. instigated by my eldest. the funniest thing is, if I used the same recipe and made muffins, they would love them. S5 has decided he only likes cupcakes, not cake, so even at a birthday party he won't eat cake...same deal, I guess, with the apple bread. so tonight I'll make muffins for them, and will send the apple bread (which is sinfully good) home with my MIL. I had a nice big piece and need to lay off of it.
I think I'll be seeing H on tuesday night. will be an interesting week...his old company has their national meeting so ow should be out of town at that till friday. wonder if H will try to come by more often, or if he'll just be the same? he's going to be bummed that he isn't there, so wonder if I'll even see less of him...he'll be home sulking or something.
whatever. his life, not mine. I have a busy week planned for myself. busy busy busy and all that.
mk, just thought of you, when harry met sally was on tv. haven't seen that in a long time. wow, did sally go dark, btw. worked well for her. I know they weren't married, but seemed to work almost on the same principle.
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M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
