Well, I've had a pretty good day - took a nap after my lack of sleep last night, which helped.
I am going to eat dinner, and then I'm taking the kids to see the Chinese lanterns at the botanical gardens, when it gets dark. We do it every year, and it is great!
It's so nice to see so many people on my thread!
Mkultra - thanks for posting. I guess you're not familiar with my sitch: I'm not standing anymore; I do not want my H back. He would pretty much have to become a totally different person for that to change, so I think the D is a done deal...and I'm good with that. You're right about the victim thing - I do try to stay away from that.
Whitelight - Thanks for your ongoing support. You're right that a good person doesn't change depending on who he's talking to. I'm pleasant to H, and I get sh*t in return - that's just not right.
As for dating, I have not been dating per se, but I've joined a Meet Up group, and we go out together. I have met quite a few men in a non-pressuring environment. I can talk to someone for, say half an hour, and if I'm not interested, I can move on. It's been a great way to meet new people. I will also just talk to men in cafe's and stuff - it's not really a problem for me to talk to people. So far, I haven't met anyone I want to pursue anything with. Well, except a guy at work that I've had a crush on for a while, but I was too messed up to act on it before. We'll see what happens there.
I am definitely ready for something (someone!) new. But I wouldn't date if I were still standing, as it would just muddy the water for me.
Hopeful - Thanks for this! I really didn't think that post would help anyone, but I'm glad it did. I'm not sure if you've actually read my WHOLE story, since I must have about 40 threads by now, and I'm sure you have a life, lol! I'm really sorry that you're going through this, too. A better life is waiting for us.
Alison, AH, Not, In4R - Thanks for taking the time to post.
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