I'm not new here but, I don't post much because I get so caught up in reading everybody elses sitch.
Today I got on here for the first time in months. I saw your sitch and read from the begining....Wow!
Sometimes we don't understand why we are made to bear such pain. Why it seems to go on forever. Why they (WAS's) get to enjoy their lives so much...etc. Or why their wrong seems to get them just what they wanted, and what we want too! Someone to love and love us back. Someone to share walks, talks, laughter and all the things you mentioned you miss so much.
You said you were having a "blue day" so was I. I have pretty much the same thing going on in my life. I was crying, and lonely and couldn't get the thought out of my mind, that my stbx is all happy with his stb-wife! That they travel, and buy new toys, and go out to dine in really nice restaurants. And I just seem to struggle along alone having to be strong for my kids.
But know this, today you helped someone else.....me! The unjustice,and unfairness of what your H has done and the way you have handled it has helped me very much. I can honestly say I feel your pain. Not that it makes it better for you, but sometimes God lets us see that were not so alone. It really does suck!!!! But nothing..nothing lasts forever, and neither will this pain and suffering last forever. The sun will shine again. My thanks goes out to "Always"!! great post. Advice that I needed to hear as well.
I know you are hurting and I'm very sorry, because I wouldn't wish this on anybody, least of all someone that sounds as great as you!
Take care, God Bless you, and thanks for making me feel a little less alone in this misery.
