(((((Karen)))))

Karen, first off, almost 40 isn't too old to have a kid. Mrs GGB was 41 and 42 for our last two. Yeah, we don't have the energy we did in our late 20's when we had the first ones, but we do have the first ones to help out. My brother's wife was 42 when she had her first, and 45 for her second. She's a great mother. Nope, 40+ is still young enough to be a good mom, and with life expectancies these days, you'll likely be around to see your grandchildren from your baby. Now that's not to say it is as easy as having them earlier. Frick and Frack are completely wearing us down, especially S3 who is far more active than any of his older siblings were. He also sees his older siblings doing things that are not appropriate for a 3yo, but he thinks he can do it anyway.
So anyway, Ithink Corri was onto something telling me to find my own happiness. Do you have room in your life to find the things that make you happy and pursue them?