I'm trying to keep up with your posts b/c I care so much what is going on with you. I don't know how you get so much life crammed into a 24 hour period. I wonder if you and H are just over committed to everything and everyone else around you and it is draining your own R?
I became a mother by 19....and was totally unprepared...hadn't even been married an entire year yet. I was a grandmother a few months before I turned 40 and most people thought our GS was our baby....which was kind of fun. The point is, that we more or less raised him due to his mom being in such bad health. But, you know what I realized? I made him a better "mother" than I did my own children b/c of maturity I had developed by the time he was born. I have heard school teachers say that they can tell children that were born to parents later in life b/c of the more GC traits they have....which you are probably familiar with the terms. I think they just mean that grandparents are more mellow and aren't as strict with the grandchildren as with their own children. But again my point is that you can't do anything about the age thing and as long as you are happy about your baby boy....enjoy him to the fullest. I think you are already doing that, it's just you are stressed by too much on your plate and not enough rest and quality time with your H.
I gather that he kind of has to be on vacation or something to get in the mood, so apparently he gets situational depressed or everything that is going on has stressed him out a lot. Becoming a parent again at this time of your life can be a shocker to some people.....and men are certainly no exception. If he was thinking that at last the two of you may be able to start thinking about planning for retirement (not that you were getting anywhere near that, but you know what I mean) or just having more time alone without the pressures of a new baby.....it can do things to people.
Also, even though you love your job.....it must be hard to leave some of that at the office. That is why I could not do that type of work, b/c I would carry it around with me all the time and my mind would be on the other people's stituations and cause my own to get way too stressed out.
Everyone needs somebody to talk to.....as I'm sure you know that in your line of work. So, perhaps you don't know who to talk to about your stitch.....but now you have us, so please come here as much as you can to just talk.
I can tell by the responses that you touched hearts, Karen. So, you've got people here that care a lot.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
