That is easier said than done LIN as before all that I was 16 years old and didn't have a clue then either. I don't ever think I ever knew. I know that I was a strong person but I still think that I am. If not, I wouldn't be here hanging on to what appears to be gone.
The part that really has me lost is "who" I was that was attracting? And now trying to figure out what I want from life other that what I've always dreamed of. It's like I have to give up my life dreams and goals and now make new ones. And that is what is SOOO hard. Because I've never wanted anything else, nor do I now. I really can't see what else there is in life but to be where I was at over 5 months ago.
I can easily look back and see plenty wrong in my marriage. Plenty wrong with the way I was in the marriage. I know now many things I need to change about me and I am working on them daily. But without the marriage I can not find any good left for my future.
I know that this sounds helpless, pathetic, but it is honesltly how I feel.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
