we love lissie

[Lissie]

I vow for this to be my last post.

I am sick in my heart, that this is the way this had ended up.

I am sorry that your Inbox was full of emails Amy, it hurts me that people join the bandwagon, and I can just imagine who they are.

I hate that a place that has been for love and support, has to turn into hurt.

I hate that when I opened my email today, it was full. It was full of people saying things about you Amy. I deleted them and did not respond.

I never have had a problem with you Amy, actually I will always remember the help you have given me.

I do have a problem with people not knowing the real deal.

and the fact that you said oh, the "sisterhood" means you don't know the real deal.

We all take Fig under our wing, not b/c she can't handle herself, but b/c she is the baby of our group.

She may be pit bullish, she may say she wants to marry us, but deep down inside we know, that if anyone tried to hurt any of us she would be the first one there to defend, us.

Why?

B/c she never had that herself, with her family.

Is she a bit obsessive? I think she is wonderful, and kooky.

I think she loves all of us the same way.

I think it takes her time to forgive, when someone has hurt us, and that is just the natural side of her.

I tell Althea, on more than one occasion, I want to marry her.

And kiss her on the mouth. I tell BBA I am going to marry her, and we will love happily ever after.

I tell the same things to Always, 14, and Valentine, and i used to say the same thing to Jeanette. I think even BND has been proposed to by me, and so has Mickey.

But we ALL KNOW that it is in fun, and in love.

I think what happened here, was that Figgy is not afraid of the backlash, or she just knows that it is not a big deal and posts those thing anyway.

I am leaving this board, hopefully in a positive light.

I hate "rumors" spite, gossip.

I believe in lifting people up and praying for them when I feel they are at their lowest.

I am sorry Amyc, that you feel something was weird, and you had to post about it, in big red letters.

I am sorry that the people that don't understand, had to waste time out of their day, and email you to keep cutting someone down.

I have love for the people here. I am sorry, that b/c someone defends me so much, it makes others uneasy and full of hate.

This world is full of such pain all the time, I don't know how love can be seen as bad too.

even kooky, love.


I have made shitload of mistakes, and I have posted things to others that i have later regretted, but I never meant intentional harm.

It makes me feel like a hypocrite, b/c I was the one involved in an emotional affair, I was the one, that did something everyone hates, and yet I didn't get backlash on the board.(behind my back, probably yes)

But my friend, that loves me, and didn't hurt me, gets it?

I am not starting a debate here. I will not start it with anyone.

I feel like my time here has come to an end, and Lord knows I have tried to leave before, but my love for you guys, and the help you always gives me keeps me coming back.

But now that i know that the "secret emails" are destructive instead of positive it is time to leave.

I am sorry this bothered you so much Amy. I hope things for you only improve, and as always as I promised you, you and your family are in my prayers

smooooooooooooooches and licks to my beautiful peeps