H wants D

[forward]

No, I think H seems to be upset w/me. I said I wanted some space. Maybe that was a mistake?

Perhaps H is panicking on the D thing? I do not know. If anything, he seems to want to take it faster now and does not waiver at all. When he said that, I just looked at him and quietly said OK. I move back and forth between not knowing what I want--would it be for best? maybe

I do believe that being D cannot possibly be worse than being ignored as much as I felt it. However, as things weren't always that way, maybe I need to think about how things used to be more.

ILs are taking D1.5 to the zoo tomorrow. At that time I am getting my hair cut (and colored a bit, if I have time) and will try to get a bit of alone time.