I just mean that, when I found God, I realized everything happens for a reason....therefore, I don't rely on karma or coincidence. I lean on God and pray at least once a day to help me and He does.
I also won't speak like a Bible beater, but I know I wouldn't be where I am at now without Him.
Funny thing is.. My W seems to be no better off with the OM than she was with me..but I also feel she hides a lot from me. She still feels like she is hurting my feelings by divulging too much information...WTF??..like she didn't hurt my feelings enough already, but that is another story.
Anyway, W seems to go through the motions with the OM...doesn't seem thrilled to have me gone. She has always talked to me like a best friend through all this, but now with OM, she talks to me only if there is something children-related or business-related....nothing personal. Maybe it is for the best.
I will say this without rambling too much, I really am feeling better about me, realizing they are her issues, not mine, and the less i know about W and OM, the better. Sure I get lonely, but right now, other than putting most of my focus on my kids and my new job, I don't mind being alone.
Sounds strange, but the prospect of dating scares the sh*t out of me, and I really don't think I would be a good time with another woman other than platonic company. I file the dating card away each time I get lonely, and pray, of course.
Good luck again, let me know things go with you..its nice to talk to someone who is going through the same sitches.
