I really do not know. I will say that this year has been really nice because X has finally stopped sniffing glue. She has scored points for going out of her way to accomodate the girls and I, which is was never done before. She told me the other day that Jan. 1, she made a commitment to work harder at making things equal and stop being so controlling. She pointed that out after 9 months, she was right.
She also mentioned that she has given up on men, that she has never had luck with them. I beleive that comes from being raised by a scorned D mom. It was drilled into her that men are scum and will always screw you over. WIth that kind of talk, I can see why she isn't good with men.
I think the part about bad choices and not being shown her mistakes as a reason not to meet, that makes sense. That is called guilt and she is carrying a huge load of it I think. This past week see told me that she was sorry for the D but that I had to get rid of the chip on my shoulder. I used to make her feel like crap because of the D and the effect it will have on all of us. I believe with the girls now both in school, a new career that she cannot keep up with and all the social activities with the girls.........maybe she is seeing the light? Simply speculation.
So to answer your question, what if she wants me back? I will not make a move or bite on it but I am all ears. That is all I can do now. I cannot ask her if those are her motives, it makes me act like I'm chasing her. All I can do is listen and make it comfortable for her to open up, that is it.
I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts,that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death
She has scored points for going out of her way to accomodate the girls and I, which is was never done before. She told me the other day that Jan. 1, she made a commitment to work harder at making things equal and stop being so controlling. She pointed that out after 9 months, she was right.
