I'm getting better. I guess the crux of the matter is was her statement BS? Were I certain that that's a true sentiment rather than a cloak to "protect" my feelings while she falls back in love with OM, my PMA would be sky high. Right now, this is like a sore tooth that I can't stop wiggling with my tongue. Unlike in the past, I'm wiggling that tooth here, rather than with W -- as you know, a pretty big step for me.
Regardless of whether it's true or not, doesn't really matter does it? If I push and it's true, I push her away. If I push and it's not true, I push her away. Paging Joseph Heller.
Fuggit for the evening. Time to go run; in the quest for the ever-shrinking Heimlich and then, the ultimate for a Friday night, buy a trash can for the apartment. Time to retire the plastic grocery bag hanging from the fridge door.
Woo hoo, come party with me, people
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
