Still think he's just trying to control you. And, wow, one sexual encounter in a year. I am so sorry. You are the one that wants to work on your M. Still do.
Don't cheapen yourself with an A (which it still would technically be at this point, you don't have a separation agreement, do you?). The pain it causes the S, which you've seen here, and the guilt that you would have felt just aren't worth it. Plus, you (and all of us) deserve to be with someone that can provide us iwth the emotional AND physical intimacy that we all crave and deserve. "Getting some on the side" cheapens everyone involved.
Oddly enough, despite all of this, you still don't sound like you're done.
Your H is really being a donkey about all of this though. That said, if you're not ready to throw in the towel -- don't.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
