That is also good insight Frank. Thanks. I did use the Alien word and it helped. I also thought MLC but I soon realized that was not the whole picture.
I have been in a better place lately. The anger is gone (finally) and now I am back to sorrow and a bit of forgiveness. Still a bit stuck but life will go on.
I have interacted with former W a bit more lately. Still cannot look me in the eye. A good friend suggested there may be the OM after all. I still don't think so but you never know.
I think she is still guilty and sad for breaking us up and b/c she cannot find the inner strength to try again. That must be hard for her. She is also still angry at me for "causing" all this. She sent me an email telling me that her father was coming to attend his brother's funeral and could she keep the kids. She also said her mom took a turn for the worse (fluid in the lung). Instead of emailing I called. We talked some but I could tell she was not comfortable talking and the anger was just below the surface. But she finally talked about her mom - gave a lot of info. I told her "call me if you need to - I don't bite". She quickly said in an annoyed tone "Don't worry, I am not afraid" - then she laughed; it was her way of asserting her independence.
Funny, today on the way to the funeral (she went with her dad) she got lost. Guess who she called for help??? I was very suprised by that call.
The last draft of the Divorce papers are at the lawyers - should be divorced by Thanksgiving.
