Am I piecing yet #2

[Have Faith]

Lwb - I never though he would read the book. It was only when he moved out that he started reading it. I had to get a second copy so that I could re-read it as I couldn't remember everything in it and wanted to be able to discuss anything that might come up in conversation about it.

Journaling:

Yesterday proved to be interesting. I worked from home in the afternoon and then went to a gym that I knew he would never go to.

I returned his call at 6:00 when I was leaving the gym apologizing for missing his at lunch time saying I was out of the office for the afternoon. When I got home he had left me a vm message on our home phone saying he might stop by that evening to do some paperwork.

He shows up at 7:00 still dressed in his slacks and shirt and not workout clothes. I ask him if he worked out and he said yes. I said well you didn't need to change back into your slacks for me. He said he didn't want to look like a bum. I'm thinking WHAT? I don't think he worked out, but I let it go.

I made him a quick dinner and he goes to work on the computer. Finally about 9:00 he says I'm going to be done in a few minutes and then I can sit down and relax with you. Next thing I know he has changed out of his slacks and put on sweats. I said it looks like you are planning on spending the night. He says, don't you want me too. I tell him that I love having him spend the night, but we had agreed that he should move out and why (OW). I never said her name, I just eluded to our convesation. He said I know and that is what we have to talk about. We both agreed that it could wait for the week-end as we were both too tired to get into that conversation then.

This morning he was not in a very good mood when he left and I could feel his distance. He also took a clean pair of jeans with him. I didn't notice until after he left. OW's B-day is sometime b/t now and end of month. Makes me think they are going out tonight, as he has only mentioned coming over Saturday morning. He knows that I golf this afternoon and won't be home until around 7:00.

I guess I will just have to wait and see. He has spent the night with me every night since we returned from vacation except Monday when he called me twice and e-mailed me telling me he loved me. I can only hope and pray that I will finally hear those word that I so want to hear. "I have told OW that I'm going back to my wife." Will that day every come.

Faith