I have no advice because I am a total mess myself but I can tell you that I have walked in the shoes you are walking in and it is scarey. I will keep you in my htoughts. Take care of yourself and always remember that YOU were not the problem.

I am starting to learn that my husband is 50 times more miserable than me and although it doesn't make it better it helps to know that it at least does hurt him that he has done what he has to us.

Hang in there.

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"