thanks. mk, you are absolutely right, I do agree it is a sickness, and that I am not his mother, he needs to do this for himself. I'm just back from the gym and honestly, the more I think about it, this really doesn't have anything to do with me...I think he's missing the kids, the new job was a mistake, that stuff. I think he's bummed because his old companie's national meeting is next week and he isn't a part of it...they are always a ton of fun, and he's missing out. not to mention, OW will be there, not here. and I'm sure its very stressful living in limbo...sometimes with her, sometimes with his mom, but no real home. and I do wonder if its partly the march of time...my house looks like the fall-fairy waved her wand over it right now. it looks nice, homey, a new season upon us. maybe the upcoming holidays, which I have thought so much about, are finally starting to hit him.
it doesn't really matter, because again, he needs to figure all this out for himself.
no, he doesn't bring up our anniversary at all. not sure he even gives it a passing thought...he's really put me/us aside, and has focused on his R with ow. but its a huge reason why I need to be very dark that day...we're talking pitch dark. because I don't want to hear the pity in his voice, I don't want him to say anything about the day, and not saying anything will hurt, too. there is no winning as far as dealing with him that day, except to concentrate on my children/the blessings of the marriage, and to take care of myself.
enough about him. I am putting him out of my mind for now. back to me. going to spend the rest of the day on me and the kids. my weekend with them is now booked, btw. going up to my parents tomorrow and taking them apple picking, then on sunday my MIL is coming down with her bf and we are going to a closer place that has pumpkins and a corn maze.
the novel, the wizard of oz is scary, am wondering about the movie, though...will it be too intense for them? what do you think?
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