Well, here we are 10pm on Thursday and he has not mentioned a thing about this weekend. We have talked a couple times during the week because of our daughter. I did not bring up the weekend, and he didn't either. I have a class Saturday morning. I refuse to call to find out wth is going on. I am not in a good way tonight.
My mother asked me tonight- if I keep sleeping with him, and he comes back, how will I know that he came back for me? I said "well, he could go get sex anywhere" and she said "You forget two things- one, he would have to go thru the trouble of actually working for it and two, he risks catching something-possibly life threatening." (The undertone to that is that if he *doesn't* have to work for it, then they are probably a skanky ho and far more likely to have some sort of STD.)
I feel like we aren't getting anywhere. I know that I have made progress compared to when he first announced he thought he should move out, but I wonder if I am just being used as a bandaid while he continues on his quest to find someone else. How are we ever going to change the dynamic if we just end up doing more of the same? BLAH
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
