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[forever21]

Soon after I posted this earlier, I felt a little silly about this paragraph.........

If it's really not what he wanted and I am over here saying this isn't what I wanted, why would he nervously jump into half-@$$ agreeing to D? I think he could've been scared I might ask well why are we then. If he really didn't want to D, wouldn't he just say well why are we then? Ego, I suppose, but it would be nice if he could just be honest so I don't second guess myself here. I would have so much more respect for him and see him as a better guy than the way he's going about it. I get the impression he wants to do this but is simply irritated it's not all on his terms, and isn't comfortable having any of the responsibility fall on his shoulders. I may just share this with him, in hopes he might see that if we are honest with each other we can proceed knowing this is the right thing to do. Any opinions out there on that?

Uhhh, yeah, lol. Well, I'm glad he didn't ask "why are we then?" cuz that would mean he really hasn't paid attention. And if I were to ask that, well that'd be even worse. All I can do is hope he saw what this was all pointing to.... the fact that I have been patient, forgiving, and open-minded, and he hasn't taken enough action to save our M or to prevent D. I guess it just would've felt nice to have him acknowledge it during that convo. I guess I'm not wanting to take the blame for this either.... yes, this is just as obvious to ME. Sigh.