Now I've done it... again

[nephartiti]

This is speculation, of course, but if he got his own apartment, I think it would be because he is distancing himself from OW, even if just a little. Seeing his car parked out there for hours when he isn't even working tells me he's not distancing. Second $100.00 at Trader Joe's is a lot for one person.

I don't think he will be looking to see his kids for at least another week. So I have time to get myself together. I feel like such a DB failure.

I don't know if I can stay sane trying to wait this out. The limbo kills me. I'm an all or nothing kind of gal. If I move on, I'm not looking back. If I stay put, I think I'll go insane. I'm trying to find a middle ground here--a place where I can truly move on without shutting the door on him completely.

We have/had a storage unit. Since he has depleted the money, and rent was due today, I figured I better empty it. Now what do I do with his stuff? Should I just be nice and store it for him so he doesn't have to crowd OW? Should I let reality really set in for him and make him deal with it? He would probably just resent me for it. Doormat or Bi#@h? What a choice!